The Things I Carry

February 23, 2011

These are the things I carry:

My wallet, at least one lipstick, keys that now have a key card and at least

two obsolete keys. I sometimes carry a small purse, sometimes one larger,

just recently I stopped carrying diapers and wipes. I occasionally carry a

child, I carry a bag for work with an organizer full of handouts and

breastfeeding information. I have a bag of finger cots for testing a baby’s

suck, I carry nipple shields. I often carry a scale for weighing babies before

and after nursing to prove to mom’s that they do have milk or to

understand why a baby is fussy all the time. In my head I carry milk

storage guidelines which I can rattle off but I keep a printed copy for the

parents I see. In my pockets I carry super heroes and fairy dust. I carry

secrets told to me by my children, my other family members, not Rob – he

doesn’t seem to like the concept of secrets. I carry secrets from the moms I

meet, I know who had abortions, I carry milk in my breasts, I carry the

memory of the babies who died in my belly, I carry the feeling of birthing

my three children, I carry the wisdom of my mother and I carry the grief of

her loss. I carry words to songs in my head, I carry the residue of

secondhand smoke in my childhood lungs, I carry the secrets of growing up

in an alcoholic family. I carry a light inside that my mother never let me

forget was bright. I carry love, fear, joy. I carry hair ties.

5 Responses to “The Things I Carry”

  1. Wendy Wisner Says:

    This is gorgeous. Hit home for me on so many level. Keep up the blog!

  2. Sakinah Irizarry Says:

    That was beautiful.

  3. felice gomez Says:

    I can’t even begin to express how beautiful and incredibly moving this was. Thank you

  4. Jora Says:

    I just found your blog (through Leigh of Marvelous Kiddo)…and I guess I have been through all of your archives now! I have to tell you….so many of your posts touched me. They reminded me why I first started reading blogs years ago: to catch a real and personal glimpse into someone’s world. Thank you for these posts! They made my night!


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